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Hello,
********I want to say Thank-You so very much for visiting my Son's, my Grand-Daughter, and my Nike's Boy's memorials. Thank- you for lighting candles, leaving poems and tributes and photos. You are all so very much appreciated. You have blessed our hearts. God bless you*********
***A MEMORY IS A PHOTOGRAPH TAKEN BY THE HEART***
Please don't tell me how "I" feel
Please don't tell me you know how I feel,
unless you have lost your child too
Please dont tell me my heart will heal,
because that is just not true.
Please dont tell me my son is in a better place it is not true he should be here with me
dont tell me that someday i'll hear his voice and see his face,
beyond today I cannot see.
Dont tell me it's time to move on,
because I cannot.
Don't tell me to face the fact that he has gone,
because denial is somthing I cannot stop.
Don't tell to be thankful for the time I had
because I wanted more time.
Don't tell me when i'm my old self you will be glad
i'll never be as I was before.
What you can tell me is you will be here for me,
that you will listen when I talk of my son.
You can share with me my precious memories,
you can even cry with me for a while.
And please dont hesitate to say his name
because it is somthing I long to hear everyday.
Friend, please realise, I can never be the same,
but if you stand by me,
you may like the new person I become someday
Thank-you for hearing me ~peace be with you~
My name is Tina and I am Nicholas's (Nick Nick's) Moma. I am also the Moma of 2 other Beautiful children, Gregory Allan (17) and Journey Rose(16) my Irish twins,( that's what they call it when our children are born within 12 months apart ) So grateful they are here with my and in my life, I don't know what I would do without their precious love for me. They keep me wanting to go on as devastating as it is to lose our Beautiful Nick.
My son Nicholas James Devine took his life Oct, 23rd 2008. That was the day all life was sucked out of me. He was 25 yrs old. On June 29th 2008 his precious 4 month old daughter passed away unexpectedly of S.I.D.S. Our precious ShelbyPaige was a beautiful healthy lovable darling, we miss her with terrible passion. Finding her lifeless body proved to be too much for our Beautiful Nick to get through it. Even though Nicholas knew how very much we loved him, his agony of finding his daughter dead was too much to bare and his pain too great to go on without her. We miss our ShelbyPaige, and I miss my Nick something fierce. The pain is still so fresh. I am so proud of my son and the way he showed his love to me, he always said I love you moma, even at 25 yrs of age. I will always be proud to call him "My Son". He and I were very close and he was a self professed "moma's boy" and proud of it. He always called me "Pretty Moma". His little Brother Greg and his little sister Journey, miss him terribly and their lives are forever changed. He was a wonderful big brother to both of them and they cherished thier big brother beyond description. They both miss you so very much Nick, they talk about you all the time and we all keep your memory alive by doing so. You were a gentle soul Nick, and I will always be proud to call you my son, and I will always be proud to be your moma. You were a great son to me... thank you Nick, I am so sad though that you are no longer here with me. I would have done ANYTHING, ANYTHING to save you, help you...oh god Nick, I did try to help you baby. I am sorry your mind tricked you into thinking that death was the only answer to ending your torment and anguish:((
Thank you Nick, for 25 beautiful years together. I shall never forget you and all the love and joy you brought into my heart and life, how could I ?!!! and I will always have you close in my heart son. Blessings and Healing to all our hearts as we travel this road of loss together in spirit, and for all of us SOS & POS parents, family and friends. To all the silblings who have lost a brother or sister, my heart goes out to you and please know YOU are not forgotten in all the pain and grief that goes on. Thank you for stopping by to honor and light a candle in our beautiful Nick's life, it really warms my heart and means so much to us, his family and friends, the survivors.
Nick Nick, I will always miss you beyond belief and will forever love you. I'll love you for always, I'll miss you forever, as long as I'm living, my baby you'll be. I'll will see you on the other side. I love you more ~moma~
***PLEASE IF YOU ARE OR KNOW SOMEONE WHO IS SUICIDAL OR HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT SUICIDE, PLEASE KNOW YOU CAN CALL THE SUICIDE HOT LINE AT 800-273-8255. If you are in crisis, please call 1-800-273-TALK or call 911 in an emergency***
God Bless you~
