Sylvie Belanger

I was really bad again but I am felling allot better now glad it is not fun at all when your in so mush pain that doing anything hurts bad and pain meds help but still hurts so when I that bad I just have to take one day at a time to get well thanks to all you that are there love you all for that take care bye for now all my love Sylvie
★ ★ ★ A MILLION HUGS SENT ★ ★ ★
Just to let you all know I not going to be on for a few weeks going on a trip to see dream land never been there but dreamed of going all my love take care love you all big hugs please keep my angle love for me will I am away bye for now all my love Sylvie

I would like to thank you all for all the love and support it has helped me alot more then anything knowing I have you all here for me just wanted to tell you all that and love to all of each and ever one of your angles wish I could do candles for each and ever one of them but I know cant be done but even if I do not they are all in my thought and prays all the time and love them all big hugs take care talk soon all my love Sylvie.

Hi all my name is Sylvie Belanger I am 37 years old. I love kids that way I am a nanny. But right now I am working because I am just to sick to but I miss it so mush and hope to get better so I can get back to it.
My health is not good right now I been like this for a long time. 3 years now scents I had to stop working. But I do know one day I will be ok. Just hope soon I am so sick and tired of living like this and want my life back even if not all the time. Would love to be pain free. I just keep hopping one day there will be a end to it all. My doc I fell he not right for me but they not going to let me change so I have to still see him. I findly think I do know what going on but will know for sure in about a mon. I getting tested to see if it is lyme disease and I not sure why I know this but for some reason I fell that it. No thanks to any of my docs I have seen over the pass 13yrs scents this all started up it me that thou gt of it. I can thank god for that one lol . But I will let you all know when I find out for sure if that it.
I have my baby girl on this site and love her and miss her everyday. They say it will get better over time but I know now not true. As for me it been 4yrs now on Aug 10th 2006. I still miss her more then words can say. I know now that will never go away. I just cant help it but keep thinking of her.
On where she would be today if she was here with me. I know that will never happen but in my heart I just fell that way .But I do know now after being on this site they is a reason just do not know why. I have moved on and keep on going thanks to my dear friends. They all been there for me they are my rock and I so lucky to have that from each and ever one of them.
I meet them all in the chat room and they say ever thing happens for a reason. I do truly think that true. If I had not joined when I did. Can tell you this I really do not know why I would be today. But I call tell you this that thanks to each and ever one of them I am doing ok and I do thank god for that one because it not I would have not had any one at all. As it comes with my family has not been there at all in all of this. To this day I keep thinking why why why why are they like that just cant understand how each and ever one of them. Can be like that they way I do fell it as if she was never here and we cant talk about her. I tell you this I am sorry but I cant do that as for she my daughter and I am her mom and she part of me and always will be even if she not here with me the way she would if she had lived.
I like to say Thank you to all of you for the love and support you all have give me and I love to say this to Damon & Geoff my 2 best friends just that I love you so mush and thanks for all the help and support you been giving me and being so understand when I needed you both. For being a true friend and take ing the time to help me get pass it and keep me talking and all when i really needed it. You are my rock and have been the sun shine of my life and always will me I do know that now seeing as it been 4yr now.

Sends I joined this site also have a memorial for my Grandpa and grandma Belanger so can you place if you have time please light a candle or tribute for them to seeing so not many have been. I would to see more that would be nice to see. And I like to say a really big thank you to all of you that have done some for each any ever one of them. Just so you all know I not going to mush for the next few weeks seeing as we going on trip soon to see our family again in Quebec and I am so looking forward to it. Get to play with kids and hold new baby's. I will be thinking about all of you and when do get back will still keep on doing them.
Bye for now take care love you all hope to talk soon all my love Sylvie.

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"Ask My Mam How She Is"

My Mam, she tells alot of lies,
She never did before.
But from now until she dies,
She'll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my Mam how she is
And because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
Because she can't describe the pain.
Ask my Mam how she is,
She'll say "I'm alright."
If that's the truth, then tell me,
Why does she cry each night?
Ask my Mam how she is,
She seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see,
Nor the strength to yell.
Ask my Mam how she is,
"I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."
For God's sake Mam, just tell the truth,
Just say your heart is broken.
She'll love me all of her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
She'll lie and say she's fine.
I am here in Heaven,
I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you, don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again,
We'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say, "You're lucky to get here Mam,
With all the lies you told."

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-----’’♥’’.. ~ ABOUT MY ANGLE
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