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Hi
We are ok, both v busy at work so not much time to think in the day. That is why it hits us when we get home as we are tired.
Jesse could never be left alone he had stress seperation syndrome so mum and dad used to have him 2 days, our friend Nat had him the other 2 and Andrew was home on a Monday so I had him at the weekends. He was such a little monkey but such a good boy for everyone, he would go for a walk with his nanny or any of us come to that and if he didn't want to go home or go the way you wanted he would sit down or lay down in the street.. People used to laugh at us. As we live near the river he would often see a cat and run off at 5.30 in the morning when Andrew would take him for his morning walk and be missing for 15 mins or so. Then he would trot out the end of the hedge that led to the river as if to say "chill dudes, I'm here whats the fuss all about?".
I wish he would come out of that hedge now.
I have never loved anything so much or felt such a large hole in my life.
Hope you are feeling better, tell Jo not to get upset, they are just scared. Bless them.
xx
Hi
I know it is so sad for them isn't it.
We will be ok, we have each other and talk about him all the time.
We laughed in bed last night when we remembered Pippa coming in and Andrew making a fuss of her....she is only a little Jack Russell. Jesse growled at her everytime she came near Andrew and lay on him on the sofa so he could not get up. He was so funny and loved Andrew to bits. It really was his masters voice. Andrew used to take him to car boot every Sunday for a walk about, they all really miss him.
I am surprised that Andrew isn't worse but I think we had been through so much with the hospital that we did expect it but just not in the way it happened or what with.
Anyway you take care.
xx
Hi
Sorry to hear that.
We are ok. I cried at lot at the weekend but I think that will just be the norm for a very long time.
Hope you get better soon.
xx
Bless you Sue, that is very lovely of you.
I am going to Poulton in Gloucs, taking the train to Paddington, then a taxi is picking me up. I have no idea where the office is or anything.
Wish me luck...
Barb xx
Thanks Sue, I had a lovely mail from you Jo earlier which gave me a bit of hope.
I am going to adopt a dog from Dogs Trust now. Andrew said they will probably only get 1p from the £1 it will cost me every week but I don't care. I wish I lived on a big farm with some land as I would fill it with homeless dogs, they would never be unhappy again.
I'll speak to you in the week as I am in Gloucester for work tomorrow and won't be home until really late.
Always in our thoughts
xx
How funny.
That is so touching re the dogs. They are so clever. My dad never really took to Jess and got cross when we called him grandad, so we had to stop it. I think he was a bit scared as he was so big and dad had recently had 3 strokes so he has changed a lot in some ways.
However over the last few months dad seemed to warm more to him. On the morning that J died, we took J to mum and dad to say goodbye and my dad even got on the floor and stroked him which I surprised at and he paid for his cremation. It was then that dad said to me, do you now what changed my mind about him, and I said what, dad said that when he had been ill, which he was before Xmas with his chest he had been in bed for 3 days and J kept coming to the bedroom and poking his head around the door and giving a little whimper then he would lay down outside the door. Dad said he found that remarkable and realised that J loved him.
As we left the house with J in Andrew's arms I said, J says goodbye nanny and grandad see you in heaven one day and dad said, yes son you will see your grandad soon. So he had won his heart over, such a clever little boy.
Anyway I will stop waffling on now, have a lovely day with your family.
xx
Your poor friend that has made me cry. I've had a terrible day today but your lovely messages help me so much.
Much love xx
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People keep telling me he is a whisper away but I just wish I could feel him around me....I don't think he will ever forgive me for leaving him that evening....why did I go out, I never went out. Andrew is like a closed door, he is smoking so much as well and had pleurisy for a month last Sept, so I am really worried about him now. If I say anything he just does it all the more....I will be all alone if he dies of lung cancer, but he won't listen. I don't think he cares now J has gone.
I can't go near cats, rabbits etc cos of their fur I am allergic to it. Jess used to make the inside of my arms come up in a rash and my cheeks when he put his face up for kisses, but I didn't care. It's 10.30 now and 4 weeks ago I was racing back to the hospital. If only I could turn back the clock Sue...my heart is breaking..
I meant to say don't get your puppies bits removed....we never did with Jesse and he always looked so good with them....I loved his little Jibberdie J's as I used to call them. I used to tickle them and he would run round in a circle...my mum used to tell me off, as mums do. LOL !
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