Robin Renee Franze

I am optimistic, although lifes paths sometimes seem so treacherous. I believe in love, I feel I have loved two of the best men ever in my life. My daddy and Steve. Both were pillars of strength and courage and I looked up to each one in a seperate but loving way. No deaths I have had in my life has affected me as these two. My dad died when I was 8, in 1971. Steve died in 2007. My stepdad, even though I loved him like he was my own father, had died peacefully in his sleep less than a year before Steve. Although he was important in my life, his death didn't affect me in the way that my dad's and Steve's have. I know his death has hurt a lot of his kids as well as my sisters and brother, As he was a great dad and Stepdad. I know my mamma feels that pain of losing a very important person in her life. I hope she is able to find comfort in her pain. My stepsister Kathy, Jim's daughter experienced her husband committing suicide in April 2008. I know the pain she feels. Although her pain is a bit different, we both hurt in a way that is undescribable. I pray for her everyday. I love talking to her on the phone, because the two of us can cry together and get angry together and also laugh together. She was my friend as a teenager. before my mom and her dad started their relationship together. We hadn't talked in such a long time and I am glad I called her to extend my sympathy because we both needed to express our feelings toward suicide to one another. My heart is forever broken, my life is forever changed. I have lost a large peice of myself, and I will never be the same. I can learn to live my life to the fullest, because I have precious memories that I hold dear. No one can take those away from me. Well lets not say that because God has a way of humbling me so often without my knowing. So lets say I pray that God lets me keep my precious memories held close to my heart. I am thankful that God allowed Steve and I to spend six wonderful years together to grow and learn from one another. We each was able to help the other grow spiritually and emotionally. I made this web site because these two deaths in my life to date have had the most impact on me. They have both caused trauma and pain, Spiritual growth and learning. They have both taught me one most important lesson in life and although we say it often we rarely practice it. That is to always say I love you and always forgive one another because life is too short for misery and pain. Love the person your with and remember to tell them just how much and important they are to you because you might not get that second chance. I love You Steve, you are forever in my heart. And, Daddy I'll never forget the lessons you taught me in the eight years we had together. I am who I am because of these two men in my life. Thank You Jesus.