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Rachel Lovell Bekis Mum

  • Joined:August '08
  • Location:London
  • Age:40
  • Last Online:December 9, 2012

About me

I am 40, mum of two lovely girls, Beki aged 12, who sadly passed over on the 20.06.08, and Josie, 15.
Beki sadly suffered from the lung disease Cystic Fibrosis, being diagnosed at 3 months after poor weight gain.

I never really took on board the fact that CF was as serious as it was, as Beki was such a vibrant girl. I saw a gifted fighter in my daughter, who filled up her 12 years to the full. Beki was very talented, winning a scholarship in acting, treading the boards with Linda Lusardi in panto,and winning dance awards. In October '07 I took Beki to London as she was offered an audition for Britain's Got Talent in Covent Garden. Beki did her set very well, singing All That Jazz,(Chicago) though there was much competition and she didnt get called back.
Even from a very young age, Beki loved to sing and dance, so I enrolled her at age 6 in The Italia Conti Associate School in Plymouth, which she loved. Most recently, Beki passed a LAMDA examination at Easter, near to the end of her life. I do hope that you enjoy Beki's songs which she recorded a year before she left us. Beki sang the songs on her 12th birthday 10.09.07, and after spending much time in Kings College Hospital in London.

I vow to continue to fund raise for CF, and help find a cure for this cruel disease. Currently I am looking to get back to work and hopefully expand my skills in holistic complimentary therapies, inspired by my daughter to help others. I enjoy the gym, nutrition, reading, spending time with my daughter, travel, crystals,healing and complimentary therapies.

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Good Evening Rachel,

Thanks for your message; it is nice to hear from you again. Yes indeed, Christmas is here once more - more heartache. All we can do is keep on keeping on, although it is so difficult.

Much love to you also at this emotional and difficult time.

XXX

November 21, 2012

Hi Rachel,

Thanks for your message; so nice to hear from you again. Hope you are all well.

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THINKING ABOUT YOU
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There are days when we do wonder
just how do we carry on.
No matter what people say
the pain, well it weighs a ton.
But you know you have an Angel
who loves you and who cares.
You are never alone on this journey;
Love surrounds you …… everywhere.

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November 2, 2011

Hi Rachel, thank you for your friend request I have accepted. Sorry for the loss of your Beki, she sounds like she filled alot into her short life. You must be very proud of her. You may know I lost my Aimee also very young, 4 years ago, still finding it very hard to cope with, but to the rest of the world I have a different face. We have to go on, so I just take one day at a time, some good some bad.

I would like to keep in touch, so just send me a message any time.

Take care Tina xxx

My Dear GTS Friends,

I would be so grateful to you all if you could please look after my Rebecca’s site for a while as I don’t think I will be able to come on to GTS for a couple of weeks.

On Friday lunch time (New Year’s Eve Day), my Husband collapsed whilst visiting a friend. An ambulance was sent for and he was taken to Doncaster Royal Infirmary where emergency surgery was performed (6½ hours) for a burst aneurysm in his stomach. He managed to survive the surgery and whilst in the Recovery Room there were some quite hopeful and positive signs but a little while later he started to deteriorate quickly and he died round about 11.15 on New Year’s Eve.

Needless to say I cannot find the words to express what this has done to me. We had been married for almost 35 years and together for 6 years previous to that. I cannot imagine my life alone without him. We have been through so much together. I am still trying to deal with the events of Rebecca. I just don't know how I am going to cope with yet another funeral of someone who I love with all my heart and who is a massive part of my life.

David was a very active and healthy person with no history of any illness except that of a broken heart. He was never the same person after losing his beloved Rebecca and I know the only thing he wanted was to be with her.

I can only take comfort in knowing that he was completely unconscious from the moment he collapsed and did not suffer and he is now with his precious Rebecca which is where he has longed to be for the past three years.

Thank you friends.

XXX

January 2, 2011

SENDING MY THOUGHTS TO YOU ALL ON CHRISTMAS EVE

Christmas Eve has come round again; how the years are flying by. Whilst many people are making merry and looking forward to tomorrow with their families, I would just like to let my GTS friends know that I will be thinking of you all because all of us share the same sorrow and heartache – we have a loved one who will be missing tomorrow. For us Christmas is emotional and difficult and a time which most of us dread. We put our robot heads on and our brave smiles as we do not wish to spoil things for anyone else but all we can do is just stand and watch others having a good time, quite oblivious to what is going on inside our hearts and minds.

Here on this site, we can all help each other at Christmas and other significant times too – we know we are not alone in the overwhelming grief we have to cope with. We all know how each other feel.

I send all my love and healing thoughts to you all, especially those who will be missing a child tomorrow – no matter what age - and I know your loved ones will be sharing your day with you. They wouldn’t want to be anywhere else.

I also send my love and my thoughts out to those who are spending their first Christmas without a special person there.

Please light a candle tomorrow for the Angel(s) in your life. Let the flame will burn bright and strong, just as your love for them is strong and bright and I know your Angels will come and shine their own wonderful light on you and your families.

I wish for all of you to be surrounded by peace, comfort and the love of your Angel – they are are only a thought away.

GOD BLESS.

XXX

December 24, 2010
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