Parents Of Ella Mae

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥Love n light Ella-Mae♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ

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Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥Sweet Dreams♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ

♥ღ♥ Gorgeous Girl ♥ღ♥


Having waited for twelve long years for you to happen I have to say we were in shock when we discovered we were expecting again! I panicked I was too old and that pregnancy may make me ill again.
Unfortunately it did and I lost 2stone when I should’ve been gaining weight. And though I went to the docs and told them my concerns they did not seem to think there was a problem.
I tried to enjoy but it’s very difficult when you’re constantly being sick or stuck on the toilet! I needed to feel you moving a sign to let me know all was well.
The scan day finally came around and I was still feeling a little unsure that I had made a mistake and this wasn’t really happening, a phantom! So when I saw your little silhouette on the screen that Friday it felt like a huge weight had been lifted and all my fears flew out the door!
That was until the guy started speaking about things I knew nothing about. Duodenal Artesia. Typically no consultant was available so I’d had to make an appointment for the following Monday. I desperately needed to understand what this meant for you and your life. Downs, Bowel problems and the smallest risk just 30% we had to think positive. The Monday came and we were devastated to find that their suspicions were now confirmed and we were left knowing our poor little baby would be faced with surgeries and problems.
Just 1 week later at 21weeks my waters broke and Ella-Mae decided the time was now. That Friday 1st May heaven gained the most beautiful little angel our darling Ella-Mae
I fear my heart will be broken forever x



♥ღ♥ Gorgeous Girl ♥ღ♥

I'm still finding it really difficult to think of anything but you, miss you so much, it really does hurt sweet dreams baby girl x x x
Our life gem stone ring has arrived and it feels like your'e home and with me i'm finding myself holding my own hand just to hold you i miss you so much i want you so badly It's been 120 days yet feels like it was only yesterday when i saw your tiny face and held your tiny hand miss you much baby girl love always Mummy x x