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Andrea Goodall

Joined:August '08
Location:Doncaster
Age:43
Last Online:August 4, 2009

About me

this site is dedicated to my precious son kevin.
he was not just anyone,
he was my son.

to all my gts friends and their loved ones
if i happen to not leave a tribute or light a candle
please bear with me,its just somedays n nights im finding it a bit difficult xxxx
thankyou x

i lost kevins future seeing his life unfold all the years to come,he was 22years old hed not even had the good bits yet,i worry ill forget him,his smile his laugh his smell his voice.memories catch you unawares but they hurt they really hurt.i have an enormous sense of shock,
how could my babys life end.
i feel guilty i couldnt save him,there is a massive hole in the centre of my body i feel like ive lost 22 years of my life,gone,
its like building a house for 22 years n your finally ready to put the roof on n you turn n when your not looking someone sweeps it away from you.
all the stones you laid all the work all the problems you faced all the time all the energy suddenly its gone its not there,there is nothing,nothing to see to show for it.all thats left is emptiness n space.
your kids dont die before you its not meant to happen like that if id done that done this its endless
ive let my son down.

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Hi Andrea

You dont know me but i have just read your story of Kevin im so sorry for your lost of your handsome cheeky faced son to lose a son is the hardest thing in the world i lost my Dal over 5yrs ago he died on he's love of he's life he's motorbike and believe me Andrea my pain is as bad if not worst today than 5 yrs ago it doesnt get any easier Andrea and any mum that says it does i cant understand......

This world is so cruel Andrea no mother should every have to bury there child never.....

I just want you to know im thinking of you & your family and i hope you can think that Kevin has found he's peace and is prahaps in a better beautiful place now thats how i have to think about Dal he is in heaven & paradise and we are in the hell.......

Andrea please dont blame yourself i know that is a hard thing for me to say to you but your Kevin was a man we can not be in there head and know what they are thinking i know that as Dals younger brother is going through hell with nightmares anger and he scares me very much but what can we do but try & be there for them and they dont always want that so just think Kevin is free from all he's hurt and hopefully watching he's lovely mum and he will always be there and beside you...

So sorry for going on i dont know why i came on to talk to you Andrea i just felt i had to while i was looking at Kevins lovely face....

Take care Andrea

Love Jenny x x x x