Mel Xxxxx

Well..... November 2009 is here and it feels like I have been living in limbo for a whole year now, as this is when I left my job due to illness. Determined to keep as much independance as we could, my man and I have been living off our savings and I have been on so many protocols to try and boost my health.

I am happy to say that I am much stronger than I was, and am going to return to work on a part time or temporary basis at first, of course, I chose the worst time possible to be out of work and now it is hard to find something in the industry I work in! Such is life.

Thank you everyone for your continued support, it means more than I could ever put into words, and my angels would also be amazed at the kindness shown by complete strangers, who have become dear friends. Bless you all. xxx

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~MISSING MY NAN SO MUCH AND WISH I COULD HAVE KISSED HER GOODBYE AND TOLD HER HOW MUCH I LOVE HER.~


UPDATE

Well, I've tried to stay away, but the longest I've managed is 5 days (lol)! My pain levels have got worse again which makes working not really possible and I just feel closest to my Nan, Grandad and other angels here, I can't help it. I know my family are right, it's just not good for my state of mind right now, but it's so hard not to come on here as I know you will all agree. xxxxxxx


The following poem is so true.....thank you to all my GTS friends, you have held my hand and let me cry, and for that I thank you. xxxxx

Don't tell me that you understand.
Don't tell me that you know.
Don't tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.
Don't come at me with answers
That can only come from me.
Don't tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.
Accept me in my ups and downs.
I need someone to share.
Just hold my hand and let me cry
And say, "My friend, I care."



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Hi to all my wonderful GTS friends,

I just wanted to say a huge thank you for all that you do, it mean more than I
could ever put into words…I am overwhelmed by the kindness and support shown
in the GTS community.

I just wanted to say that I will be on here less over the coming weeks, but that
all your Angels will be in my thoughts and prayers.

For those of you that don’t know, I suffer with Lyme Disease, a bacterial
infection spread by the bite of a tick (or any other nasty blood sucking bugs
for that matter!) This is complicated by lots of other bacteria which these bugs
carry, as well as Lyme, and is difficult to treat. One of my main symptoms is
horrific joint, muscle and bone pain, which sometimes is under control, but
other times can be pretty damn awful.

I had to give up work last year, and at the moment I am nearly back to the stage
where I feel I may be able to work again. So I am starting to apply for jobs,
and hope to regain my independence as soon as possible. I need time away from
GTS for a little while in order to do this…and also my family have noticed I
have started to become a little withdrawn from every day life and ordered me to
come off the GTS site, which I (apparently) am addicted to.

So please bear with me for a little while…I will light candles and leave poems
as and when I can, and I really hate missing any Angel Anniversaries, that’s
something that I will feel the most guilt about, as I want all our Angels to be
remembered on those bitter sweet, sad days.

Thank you for those who continue to light candles and leave messages and pics
for my Angels – Grace (Nan), Frank (Grandad), and my beautiful animals, Patch,
Candy & Honey, Tinker, Squawk and my hamsters.

I hope you understand. Love to you all, my dear friends. Thank you again for
everything. Back soon. xxxxx