Mel Xxxxx

*** Please Read *** 3 January 2013

I have come to a very tough decision and it tears me apart to have to do this, but I am going to freeze my memorials for the foreseeable future.

I don't want to delete them, as their memory must be allowed to live on forever through wonderful sites such as this, and I thank each and every one of you for visiting them, spending time to remember them and leave them your love, I can never thank you enough for your kindness. You are all very dear to my heart, and I am contactable through the Inbox here, which I will check in on when life allows.

An explanation - I feel I must focus on getting myself and my life sorted, once and for all, my answer to anyone asking me how I am has always been "I'm fine!" but inside, underneath the smiley exterior, there is a very unhappy Mel, and I can't deceive myself any longer that everything is ok, when it's not. Uncertain about so much, and where my future is headed. There is so much more to my story, and some of you will know a little, or a lot, about me, but that by no means determines the strength of our friendship - likewise, I know a lot about some people here, and very little about others, but I DO know that I have met the most kindly, wonderful bunch of friends, regardless of how often we catch up, we are always only a message away, to help each other, support each other and lift each other up. I can't say that for many people in my life, and that's the truth.

Thankyou all, I do hope to be back sooner rather than later, and I am determined to make big changes to my circumstances which will make life less complicated than it is now, and then perhaps I'll be able to leave tributes and visit your beautiful angels here on GTS, who, believe me, I am going to miss so much.

My love to you all, always. Please don't lose touch, I couldn't bear that. xxxxxxx


NOVEMBER 2012

To all my lovely friends here on GTS - I want to send my heartfelt gratitude to you all for helping to keep my angel's memory alive - you are all so special and giving your time so selflessly really warms my heart.

I just want to say that I think of you and your angels often, and I am so sorry I haven't been around as much as I used to be, some recent developments have occurred regarding my beloved Nan's death in 2007 and I feel it is Nan's way of letting me and the family know we must spread awareness so other families don't suffer the heartbreak and devastation we did and still are to this day.

I will always check the days of remembrance so I don't miss any special days, and will try my hardest to leave tributes as often as I can.

Please bear with me, I understand if you can't visit my angels too, I am thinking of you all and will be in touch as soon as is possible. All my love. xxxxx


*** 26th APRIL 2012 ***

My heart is heavy, it feels like it has been literally ripped from my chest and a ton of bricks has been placed instead... Our beautiful Misty, mum to Candy and Honey, has passed to the Rainbow Bridge at approximately 1.15pm today.

I have added her to the kittens memorial and will write her eulogy when I am more able to... please please forgive me if I miss any special days my friends - my heart is broken, Misty - my last link to my childhood, our beloved old dog Patch who we lost in 2000, and her dear little kittens - meant the world to us, we had to make the awful decision to put her to rest (vet made a home visit) and we know it was the right thing for her, but as anyone who has made this awful decision before, it hurts like hell and you always wonder "what if".

Please, light and candle and help guide her to the Bridge safely, she was a beautiful girl, truly.

Thanks so much, I can't stop the tears from falling even writing this, I appreciate all your kind support for all my angels always my dear friends. Love always. xxxxxxx

"We who choose to surround ourselves with lives even more temporary than our own live within a fragile circle, easily and often breached.
Unable to accept its awful gaps, we still would live no other way. We cherish memory as the only certain immortality, never fully understanding the necessary plan."

~ Irving Townsend


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I love you all and your angels to pieces, and I am so pleased to be able to pay tribute to the wonderful people and animals who touched your lives so deeply. I just find it a little sad coming on GTS at times and it really gets me down...please bear with me my friends. xxx

I AM SO SORRY I CAN'T VISIT THE MEMORIALS HERE AS OFTEN AS PREVIOUSLY...I HAVE A LOT GOING ON RIGHT NOW AND KEEP YOU AND YOUR PRECIOUS ANGELS IN MY HEART WHEN I AM NOT ON GTS. I ALWAYS TRY TO GET ON FOR ALL ANGEL DAYS/BIRTHDAYS STILL.
THANKS SO MUCH TO EVERYONE WHO KEEPS MY LOVED ONES MEMORY ALIVE, YOU HAVE HEARTS OF GOLD. xxxxxxx

Every person with whom we seemingly have a chance encounter while here upon this planet has the potential of exerting a purely angelic influence upon us if we will but allow it.
~ Jerry Hicks

...PLEASE READ...(as of May 2011)

Please bear with me over the coming days - my visits to your angels may be scattered and not daily for a little while.
I am seriously looking at my current situation and need to take time to set my life back on the right path, as since my Nan's death and deterioration in my own health in 2007 I feel I have not taken any real interest in my life or where it is heading. I hope this is now the right time to do this, and this may involve taking a little time away from GTS.
Love to all my friends, thankyou so much for remembering my angels and I am never far away if you need me. xxxxx


THANKYOU MY LOVELY FRIENDS FOR YOUR SUPPORT ALL YEAR ROUND, YOU ARE ALL AMAZING. XXXXXXXXXX

♥ Just as the soft rains fill the streams,
pour into the rivers and join together in the oceans,
so may the power of every moment of your goodness
flow forth to awaken and heal all beings,
Those here now, those gone before, those yet to come. ♥
♥ By the power of every moment of your goodness
May your heart's wishes be soon fulfilled
as completely shining as the bright full moon,
as magically as by a wish-fulfilling gem. ♥
♥ By the power of every moment of your goodness
May all dangers be averted and all disease be gone. ♥
♥ May no obstacle come across your way. ♥
♥ May you enjoy fulfillment and long life. ♥
♥ For all in whose heart dwells respect,
who follow the wisdom and compassion, of the Way,
May your life prosper in the four blessings
of old age, beauty, happiness and strength. ♥

♥ - Traditional Buddhist Healing Blessing ♥

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THANK YOU to all my GTS friends for your never-ending supply of support and friendship over this past year.

THANK YOU to everyone who has taken the time to leave a beautiful picture, light a candle or leave a lovely poem for my angels – I read and look at every single one and it just means so much.

THANK YOU to passers by and strangers, who may stop by and not leave any sign that they were even there, but just by reading my angels stories or visiting their memorials has meant that they will not be forgotten and is helping to keep their precious memory alive.

THANK YOU everyone, I could never explain how much it means to me, there are no words…but this has been such a difficult few years and I am ever hopeful that it will get better!

The love and kindness that has been shown to my angels and me is reciprocated a billion times over, bless you all.

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~MISSING MY NAN SO MUCH AND WISH I COULD HAVE KISSED HER GOODBYE AND TOLD HER HOW MUCH I LOVE HER.~