Jackie Longworth

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They shall not grow old as we who are left grow old. Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn. At the going down of the sun and in the morning, We will remember them..

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UPDATE 17/7/09

As I no longer come on the GTS site very often now I would just like to show my gratitude and thanks to my gts friends for their continuing support and love they show my beautiful angel daughter Amy with the many wonderful candles,verses and tributes that are left, these mean so much to me as all of your wonderful young angels do to me , my thoughts are always with you all everyday even though I have found a new way of comfort for myself which is what I truly need I appreciate everything you have all done and continue to do,I have found the Peace that I have longed for since losing my daughter and I thought I never would but to my surprise it has come back at long last,I will continue to miss Amy for eternity and my heart will always ache for her but I have found her deep inside my soul and I know she is with me every second, pushing me forward in this life,I have learned so much from her in the last 5 years and I will continue learning on this long road to recovery ( if that ever comes ) but I must try for her sake, my wish is that 1 day all my gts friends will also find this peace in your hearts, we have all been left here for a reason and I believe it is to help others who are going through this terrible pain we all feel, each day there are many more who join our unique status and are all in need of the comfort and help we have all found on this site.
I found a huge comfort in the years prior to all the changes on gts but have found it increasingly difficult since the changeover which is why I sought an alternative, somewhere I can ,think, say,or write anything I feel without being judged , and thankfully I have done so,I have a new private site in which I still write to Amy and tell her how I feel which helps me so much but I do it in private now because I found whatever I was writing was attracting a few mindless people on here who have nothing better to do but to criticise a grieving mother over the loss of her much loved daughter which I know you my friends understand fully.
I wish you all a safe journey along this very long path we all walk and you will always remain in my heart and thoughts
all my love
your friend
Jackie xxx

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A very important subject

I have just watched a very interesting interview on THIS MORNING about a subject
I found out that my beautiful daughter cared so much about, SELF HARM and tried
to help others who had this problem in her short life, I was so proud and amazed
at how Amy cared about this subject along with many others ie bullying, world
poverty, racism ect,It was after we lost Amy we were informed that she had tried
to help others overcome this problem and I certainly was not surprised at her
actions because Amy was a very nice person inside and out, she would have been
such a wonderful adult had she not been robbed of her life at such an early age,
Amy was so caring and the most unselfish person I have ever known, she would literally
take the clothes off her own back to give to someone who she thought was less
fortunate than herself as she did when she was younger, I found out
that clothes and toys were going missing which we had bought for her only weeks
earlier, she was giving them to a girl she told me it was because this little girls
parents couldn't afford them so she let her have hers as she felt sorry for
her, that was typical of Amy and she makes me so proud,
when I was told after
her death that she had been trying to help others with this problem my
heart burst into a million pieces to think that she had been taken away from
this world and she could and would of made such a huge difference with many
around her, which is why I am now looking into this subject and to support it as I
know thats what she would be doing if she was still here with us,
Amy led a
privileged life as she was lucky enough not to have any of the problems that cause young people
to take these actions and for that I am thankful,at least we know we gave our daughter
a happy contented life which she enjoyed to the full until the end of her short
but beautiful life,
these youngsters or people who find
themselves in this situation have reasons for doing what they do and this was said in the interview on tv they said it is a illness not attention seeking as many think as I once did but I was ignorant to the fact because I had never come across it within my family, there is always a
underlying reason for their actions, I agree the help should start in the
schools as it is an ever increasing problem that starts majority of the time in
young teens who feel their lives are worthless for what ever reason, they have
deep physiological problems which mostly start within their family life, some disruption, upheaval, unstable or breakdown within the family background, it is a mental issue that needs to be acknowledged by the authorities and brought out into the open so more people are aware of it instead of being hidden, people can see the scars on the arms of the self harmer's so why not do something to help them, that's what my beautiful girl done and more than likely would have continued to do if her life had not been cut short because she had compassion beyond belief and a wonderful caring nature which would have taken her far.


THIS MORNIG INTERVIEW

Self-harm

Actress Meera Syal, 47, was compelled to make a new BBC documentary tackling the subject of self-harm.

Meera was moved after reading the shocking statistics from the Mental Health Foundation that young Asian women are three times more likely to self-harm than any other group.

It was around 11 years ago that Meera picked up a newspaper and read the headline 'Young Asian women are three times more likely to self-harm than any other group'.

But next to the headline was another news story; 'Asian women top the graduate league,' Meera admits: "It disturbed me to see evidence of how much we can achieve, laced with our ability to destroy ourselves."

Meera's message to others is: "If you find out someone is self harming don't panic, a first instinct is to think 'Oh God, they are mentally unstable.' But more often than not, it's not a suicide mission, it's a coping mechanism. They need to be supported and not be judged. Self harming is a big grey area, but there is life beyond it."

Meera Syal: A World Of Pain- Tonight, 9pm on BBC2

Helplines
Self harm
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This is part of my story written about the life of my beautiful daughter which I compiled together from many fitting comments,from many wonderful people who knew her and knew of her well respected behaviour towards others and my own personal knowledge of my daughters character, we have always known the truth about Amy but it has made us so proud to have it all confirmed by many kind honest genuine people especially after a few mindless comments made over the last few years by some who wanted to tarnish our memory


NEWSPAPER ARTICLE PUBLISHED AFTER OUR DAUGHTER AMY,S TRAGIC DEATH
WHAT A FANTASTIC TRIBUTE TO A WELL RESPECTED TEENAGER
WHO HAD HER WHOLE LIFE AHEAD OF HER BUT WAS SADLY TAKEN FROM US, AMY WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN SHE WILL LIVE ON INSIDE MANY MEMORIES

Tragic Amy inspires school writing contest


Published Date: 30 June 2004
CLASSMATES at Oxclose Community School put their writing skills to the test in memory of Amy Longworth.
Pupils at the Washington school were inspired to write about The Role of the Peacemaker, a title chosen because Amy was skilled at teamwork and sorting out differences between others.

The 13-year-old died in March, after being knocked down while
crossing the A182 Washington Highway.

Her former school, Oxclose Community School, and the Sunderland Echo launched The Amy Longworth Writing Award in her honour.

Lauren Parkinson, 12, of Lambton, won the first prize of £100 and the chance for her work to be published in the Echo.

Runners-up prizes of £25 each went to Jade Carr, 12, of Oxclose, and Ryan Curry, also 12, of Rickleton.

Lauren's article looked at songwriter John Lennon and former South African president Nelson Mandela.

She said: "You don't know much about people who are peacemakers, but we went on the internet and we had some information sheets.

"I learned how many people care for the world."

Amy, of Ayton, in Washington, worked with the Connexions youth service, where she was seen as a good team worker who got people working together.

Mike Foster, headteacher at Oxclose Community School, said: "Our students have shown they can respond to a challenge like The Role of the Peacemaker, which is quite a significant title.

"Also, it's in memory of Amy, which is appropriate because it's about something that she did and was involved in."

Echo editor Rob Lawson said: "It is a fitting tribute to Amy and it's nice her memory will live on in a school where she was well known and respected by many.

"Hopefully, we will make the award an annual event."

WE ARE SO PROUD AT THE TRUE FACTS ABOUT OUR DAUGHTER WHO WAS LOVED AND RESPECTED BY MANY AND WHO WILL ALWAYS BE SADLY MISSED BECAUSE WE ALL KNOW THE WORLD WAS ROBBED OF A WONDERFUL YOUNG ADULT WHO WOULD HAVE MADE SUCH A DIFFERENCE AND CONTINUED HER GOOD WORK BY HELPING MANY AS SHE DID IN HER SHORT BUT FULLFILLED LIFE.


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Mother told me always to follow the Golden Rule.
And she said it's really a sin to be mean and cruel.
So, remember if you're untrue,
Angels up in heaven are looking at you.

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A lovely song with perfect words
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you're my world you're ev'ry breath i take
you're my world you're ev'ry move i make
other eyes see the stars up in the skies
but for me they shine within you're eyes

as the trees reach for the sun above
so my arms reach out to you for love
with your hand resting in mine
i feel a power so divine

you're my world you are my night and day
you're my world you're ev'ry pray'r i pray
if our love ceases to be
then it's the end of my world for me

with your hand resting in mine
i feel a power so divine

you're my world you are my night and day
you're my world you're ev'ry pray'r i pray
if our love ceases to be
then it's the end of my world, end of my world,
end of my world for me

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A SUBJECT VERY CLOSE TO MY HEART,

TRUTH AND LIES WILL ALWAYS COME OUT INTO THE OPEN EVENTUALLY
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Its shocking what I have just heard today, the lies, the deceit, what is this world coming to but at least they have now been found out and brought out into the open and only right,
this is a subject that is very close to my heart because its a true saying that I have always believed in( everything comes to those who wait,)

its happening for sure day after day, lies that have been proven and now they must pay the consequence for their actions,
as a child I was always taught to tell the truth because liars are always found out, and sure enough it is right,to be a liar you must have a good memory because a lie will always slip out somewhere or somehow.

they certainly deserve all they get, its absolutely disgusting but it does not surprise me at all, there are so many people who think they can get away with whatever they want at the expense of others but how wrong they are,

thank god.

maybe someday this world will change for the better.
but there will always be evil people about.


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I am the proudest woman on this planet, I am so proud of my amazing daughter who was so wrongly taken from us far too soon, I have been told some very pleasing and honest truthful comments about my daughters behaviour and conduct towards others that has truly amazed me but we have never had any doubts in our heads about her honesty, her compassion,her caring loving nature and how she would have made such a difference in this world had she not been chosen that night to be an angel in gods paradise, but I know that he only takes the best as every mother on this gts site have all sadly found out, it has been mentioned on several occasions that our children take their lead from their parents and their upbringing and I have found out that all of our hard work with our children including Amy has certainly paid off, we have taught them all very well to be wonderful honest people who are all very well thought of and we can live our lives with so much pride for them all, Amy was a beautiful girl with a beautiful soul who shone like the brightest star and her memory can never be tarnished by the small minority who have tried over the years since we lost her , but after talking to other mothers on this site at great length I have come to realise that We are not alone and that there are and always will be a few mindless people who get some sick pleasure from trying to scar our wonderful memories of our children as there is always someone who thinks they have the right to destroy our precious memories for what ever their reason, I think they want the attention that our children have received over losing their short lives in whichever way, our children deserve the honour and the respect that they get and should be allowed to rest in peace, life has dealt many parents a life sentence when our children were taken from their loving families and we all live with the pain of that every second of our life so the last thing we need is this ruthless behaviour but we can all stand strong and remember our children with the love and dignity they truly deserve.
I would like to thank everyone who has lit candles and left wonderful tributes for my daughter while I have been in hospital it is very much appreciated and I promise I will be back in action again very soon where I can repay the honour by doing the same on your angels sites.
once again thank you so so much


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( Love me , hate me, say what you want about me )

( Remember my name , Im gonna live forever )


THE PERFECT SONG

La la la, la la la la la
La la la, la la la la la

Oh baby baby have you seen Amy tonight?
Is she in the bathroom is she smokin' up outside? Oh
Oh baby baby does she take a piece of lime
For the drink that I'm a buy her do you know just what she likes? Oh

Oh oh, tell me have you seen her? cause I'm so oh
I can't get her off of my brain
I just want to go to the party she gon' go
Can somebody take me home?
Ha ha, he he, ha ha, ho

Love me hate me, say what you want about me
But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy
Love me hate me, but can't you see what I see?
All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

(love me, hate me)
La la la, la la la la la
La la la, la la la la la

Amy told me that she's gonna meet me up
I don't know where or when and now they're closing up the club, oh
I've seen her once or twice before she knows my face
But it's hard to see with all the people standing in the way, oh

Oh oh, tell me have you seen her, cause I'm so oh
I can't get her off of my brain
I just want to go to the party she gon' go
Can somebody take me home?
Ha ha, he he, ha ha ho

Love me hate me, say what you want about me
But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy
Love me hate me, but can't you see what I see?
All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek amy
Love me hate me
Oh, say what you want about me?
Oh, but can't you see what I see?
(Love me Hate me)
Oh, say what you want about me?
La la la, la la la la la

So tell me if you see her
(let me know what she was wearin, yeah, and what she was like)
'Cause I've been waiting here forever
(let me know what she was goin out of mind)
Oh baby baby if you seek Amy tonight
Oh baby baby we'll do whatever you like
Oh baby baby baby
Oh baby baby baby

La la la, la la la la la
La la la, la la la la la


Love me hate me, say what you want about me
But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy
Love me hate me, but can't you see what I see
All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

Love me hate me, say what you want about me,
(yeah)
la la la, la la la la
Love me hate me, but can't you see what I see
All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

(Love me hate me)
Oh, say what you want about me?
Oh, but can't you see what I see?
(Love me hate me)
Oh, say what you want about me?
All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy.

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I love these songs

THANKS TO EVERYONE FOR ALL OF YOUR KIND THOUGHTS AND MESSAGES, HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GREAT EASTER BREAK YOU ALL CERTAINLY DESERVE IT
ALL MY LOVE
JACKIE XXXXX

THANK YOU TO ALL OR MY FAMILY , FRIENDS AND MY MANY GTS FRIENDS FOR ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT THEY HAVE SHOWN US IN OUR TIME OF NEED YOU ARE ALL FOREVER IN MY HEART AND THOUGHTS

LOVE JACKIE AND GEORGE

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I AM THE MOTHER OF A BEAUTIFUL ANGEL WHO ON THIS EARTH WAS LOVING, CARING, BUBBLY, AND WAS THE MOST HONEST TRUSTWORTHY GIRL OF HER AGE I COULD EVER MEET, SHE CARED SO MUCH ABOUT OTHERS AND LOVED LIFE TO THE FULL BUT SADLY SHE WAS TAKEN FROM THE ARMS OF THOSE WHO LOVE HER DEEPLY TO BE AN ANGEL BECAUSE GOD ONLY TAKES THE BEST

WE WILL HONOUR AND RESPECT OUR DAUGHTER WITH EVERY BEAT OF OUR HEARTS UNTIL WE TAKE OUR LAST BREATH



FREEDOM OF SPEECH ALSO FREEDOM OF CHOICE IS A GIFT WE ARE ALL ENTITLED TOO THANK
GOODNESS FOR THAT SMALL BIRTHRIGHT
This is an e-mail I received a few months ago which I find very appropriate as I am also a mother of a serving soldier who has fought in Iraq and is now preparing to go to Afghanistan to fight for his queen and country, to give the people of this country the freedom we are all entitled to and I am so proud of him and his many colleagues past and present who are all prepared to sacrifice their lives so we can all live in peace, these men and woman should be honoured and respected for all they do.
Freedom of speech - what do you think

Hit the nail on the head!
An incident occurred in a supermarket recently, when the following was witnessed:
A Muslim woman dressed in a Burkha (A black gown & face mask) was standing with her shopping in a queue at the checkout. When it was her turn to be served, and as she reached the cashier, she made a loud remark about the Union Jack lapel pin, which the female cashier was wearing on her blouse.
The cashier reached up and touched the pin and said, 'Yes, I always wear it proudly. My son serves abroad with
the forces and I wear it for him'.
The Muslim woman then asked the cashier when she was going to stop bombing and killing her countrymen, explaining that she was Iraqi.
At that point, a Gentleman standing in the queue stepped forward, and interrupted with a calm and gentle voice, and said to the Iraqi woman: 'Excuse me, but hundreds of thousands of men and women, just like this lady's son have fought and sacrificed their
lives so that people just like YOU can stand here, in the UK which is MY country and allow you to blatantly accuse an innocent check-out cashier of bombing YOUR countrymen'. 'It is my belief that if you were allowed to be as outspoken as that in Iraq, which you claim to be YOUR country, then we wouldn't need to be fighting there today'. 'However - now that you have learned how to speak out and criticise the British people who have afforded
you the protection of MY country, I will gladly pay the cost of a ticket to help you pay your way back to Iraq'. 'When you get there, and if you manage to survive for being as outspoken as you are here in the UK then you should be able to help straighten out the mess which YOUR Iraqi countrymen have got you into in the first place, which appears to be the reason that you have come to MY country to avoid...'
Apparently the queue cheered and applauded.
IF YOU AGREE... Pass this on to all of your proud UK friends..
I just did..............!!!

Support Our Troops.

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