

Many thanks for your kind words for Michael you are a very compassionate person Julia its amazing how one candle or a small tribute can make you feel whenever you go onto our sites its so uplifting yes i cry at some of them but it also gives me a boost to face the day i wonder if Debbie feels the same although she is a few weeks behind me in her grief and i can tell you its surprising what difference those weeks can make in your state of mind............. i can talk about Michael now without crying by the time i get to the end of the sentence in the beginning i only had to say his name and that was it now it really varies as to what will make me go off on one but that is getting less, in a way i dont want it to but i do realise life is for the living i think the hardest thing for me is that i always believed in the after life and i believed Michael would come to me in one way or another and let me know he was with me and that he was ok but there's nothing he's gone and thats it its such a horrible thought and feeling knowing that i must now continue my life in the way we had planned but i will never ever see him again............Anyway did'nt start this conversation to burden you what i wanted to know is where did you get your 'think bike' stickers from as thats a good idea i think that would help me if i could get some and start handing them out although ironically we put one in the back of our 4x4 only a matter of days before Michael was killed........ once again my woman thanks for you support....you take care please love Jackie xxxx
Jules thank you so much for your kind words and lighting a candle for Michael it means a lot to me it really does. This is the most horrendous way to meet new friends but i guess we do all have one thing in common heartache and tragedy...........Life for me at the moment is very dark but i just take one day at a time, Its going to be hard this week as we were due to be married on Michael's birthday the 5th November. I am a few weeks ahead on Debs for my grieving and it is so ironic how similar our circumstances are i was lucky though as Michael was nt married and was actually living with me however cos we were'nt married and there was no will his family got solicitors involved and have taken a lot of what i had of Michael away along with the fact myself and my family were not welcome at his funeral another thing im having to come to terms with as they cremated him and Michael wanted to be buried in the churchyard only minutes from where we lived in that way he would'nt have been far from me he hated being away from me. That church had a service last night for loved ones that have died this year so i did go and lit a candle for Michael as i have no idea as to what they have done with his ashes at least Debs has a grave to go to... She will over the next few weeks start to pick up it is peculiar the stages you go through Michael will have been gone 16weeks on Friday and i must say im looking at things so differently at the mo but trust me that can change by the hour.... you take care once again thank you and tell Deb im only at the end of her pc she can ask me whatever she likes im thinking of her all the while bless her heart life is a f---in a bitch lots o love jackie capps
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