Gemma Green

i am jemma and i lost my dad 5 months ago from cancer me n my mam n family was with him every step he did well 2 fight it he did his bes he told me he would n i am happy that he kept that prommis i love him so much n miss him there is a big hole in my heart with out him i was always by his side every where he went i did alot off things with him what i just miss so much x x well that is all 4 now..... dad this is for you !!!i come to your grave to talk to you... people tell me you can't hear me because your gone i just tell them you might be gone in there eyes but not in mine because your still in my heart and you always will be i cry when i think of you but people ask me why i just tell them how i felt about you and that i still love you .and that i miss you so much but people just tell me there is no point in still loving you because your gone and you will never be coming back and i agree whith them you are gone but you will never be fogotten and one day we will meet again i promise... i pray to god everynight asking him to keep you safe . and i talk to him about meeting you again i wanted to kill myself just so i could see your face again in heven but then i knew you wouldnt want me to do that . i try to be happy but i can't when i know that i won't hear your voice for along time i always thought i could live without you but i realli feel i can't i never thought you would have left me my mum said you never left me god just needed an angel i ask god can i be his next angel so i can be with you but he never replies i even ask god why ,why did he have to take you and make me hurt so much i don't think anyone realli knows how much it hurts to be missing you i hate you not being around i wish i could even see you one last time ...so i could say goodbyeno one understands me anymore no one understands that i will alway love you i never knew this would of happend so soon no one did i wish that... that i could look back on the good times with you but that ha all gone everything as changed and even thinking about it makes me won't to cry ..cry so much but my mum tells me not to cry she told you were looking over me and you wouldnt wont me to cry i tell heri am SORRY but thats all i can do cry she told me i could look back at the good memories but i said i cant do that with out him because i need him to be with me while we look back and she said why ? so i replied i need to see his smile and feel his touch while we smile together and look at the good memories then my mum said why dont you tell me and him the good memories but then i tell her i wish i could tell him she told me i can because you will always be there with me then she said you wouls never give up on me cuz you love me to much and i love you (DAD YOU ARE ONE IN A MILLION AND I LOVE YOU FOR THAT I MISS AND LOVE YOU )