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hello crispy, how strange i went back on here so soon, and then saw you were here at the same time, yes im feeling low today, got quite a bit going on, dr doing tests as he thinks i have an enlarged liver....my own fault, but, im sure it just dr moss being over cautious, ive got to have blood tests tomorrow fasting ones . dads dream was so real, i was with dad he was so poorly and just wanted to give up, i woke, and went back to sleep and the dream carried on....it was so vivid last night, an yet i cant quite piece it all together today. i love you crispy hope you get this too xxxxxx
i would like to thank you for the comment you left on my wee brother macauley's memorial it helps to know ppl care
Hi Elaine,hope ur ok,love Mandy,xxxx
morning crispy bucket, i was too so sure it was dad, usually you know what im like i can doubt what im thinking...but, i saw dads face straight away in my thoughts and i really did feel that shivering feeling...i felt so blessed.
dads in my thoughts so very much, i miss him so very much, my days are strange now, dont have a purpose really.
although i will say i really enjoyed my day with jenny on saturday we met at 10am outside the royals firstly had a coffee in M & S went shopping (well looking, neither of us had the money) then had a bit of lunch in the pie n mash shop in clifftown road, jen had a chicken salad i had a toasted cheese n onion sandwich...we really are such a good combination, so a like, we are meeting again in two weeks (my next saturday off) and then barry and i have her 40th birthday on the 28th march...shes had just got back from portugal and broght me a beautiful bracelet, bless her. i also saw michelle from biffins the other day in asda, shes not been having a good time of it, they lost there next door neighbour he was a builder working on a roof in leigh and fell, they used to go on holiday s together, they miss him so much, also her sister has just been diagnosed with lukemia, shes in london hospital, not doing too well...honestly it really is all doom and gloom at the moment....
i was pleased to hear sammy is happier having grant back in her life, lets hope he has changed....for her sake she doesnt need anymore disappointments bless her, do you think people eveer really change crispy??? im not so sure. but, i really do hope so.and let hope that greg digs himself a deeper hole poor kids must be so confused.
oh well crispy poo love you very much, take care, miss you lots , ive still got that book to send you...i will get it off soon i promise , it will only be a few pounds to send but, im that desperate at the moment that every penny counts...ive even borrowed £200 from jade, to try and help my bank as i was getting letters, everythings gone pear shaped since dad has past, i think ive just brought shopping etc more n more almost been a comfort....mentally im really not that well, i do get some really dark days, when i just want out....im sorry i wasnt going to tell you, but, im not really doing too well again although i take my tablets religously....maybe im just too used to them, the dr forever just gives me repeats prescriptions...maybe when the nicer weather comes ill feel a bit better, i llove you veery much your chippy xxxxxxx please dont start worrying about me, it will pass just a blip at the moment, we all have em dont we xxxxx
hello crispy im so very sorry to hear of all this sad news going on with sammy its so unfair, its an awful thing when a child has there minds poisoned as you know i have that from experiance and look how many years dad and i lost with one another, ill never ever forgive mum for that, i love her but, find it still hard to forgive, ....what about being as ive been in the same situation couldnt i have a word with josh/amy , or even have there facebook if they have one and gradually get chatting to them on that score, the poor things are being so caught up in all his lies , unfortuanatley, hes that cruel, poor sammy must be at her wits end, in fact one day last week she was on facebook and i attempted to chat with her, but, she wasnt really replying so i said i had a problem with my internet, as i didnt want her to feel pressured into chatting if she was tired and down, i can understand she must be so down very down....i woke up the other night crispy and felt someone on my face...i i opened my eyes and instictively felt dad was with me, im sure he either kissed my cheek or touched my cheek but i just know it was dad, as i also had that shivering feeling that we had when we saw jo....i felt so relaxed after too, and went back to sleep i can remember in the morning waking up and having a smile straight away as i just know it was dad who came to me....thank god you understand all this as most woould think ive gone nuts , but it was so very real.
im meeting jenny tomorrow in town for a girlie shop (well, look about town) and maybe a bite to eat, looking forward to seeing her, we have her birhtday next month her 40th to go too its at the little church hall at the end of where maxine lived where i went brownies, and where mum and dad one that cake that time remember the one with all the marzipan fruit on it like a fruit basket????
i saw michelle who was at biffins with dad last night in asda when id finished work, she gave me a big hug , we are going to meet too, shes very down at the moment as her sister has just been diagnosed with lukemia shes 42....in barts hospital london ...so she was very down, i mentioned to her that conor went to the young lads funeral yesterday and has the other one on tuesday, it turned out that tom jarrett the one on tuesday was the grandson of the lady who was always in the bed next door to dad at biffins....and was one of conors good mates, so sad isnt it.
oh well crispy bucket i must get on as ive got george and molly being groomed soon, i love you so much , i wish we could be there for one another we are in mind but physically too, we both need a hug sometimes eh.
give sammy a hug for me, i do feel for her, poor thing.
lots of love and hugs to you too
your chippy poo xxxxxxxxxxx
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