HI Eileen thanks for your message,it helps when you know you are not alone.
It will be a hard day for you on your son's first anniversay as Iknow with losing both of my girls.
The only thing I can say is to do whatever you need to do to remember him and to get through the day.
I always buy a roses for my girls & we usualy go away for the night.
We then find a quiet river,lake or stretch of water & put the roses in & talk to them.
I think we all have to find our own ways to get through this.
Thinking of you,
Thinking of you when I read your post. I hope you find peace within your heart. I lost my daughter to suicide in October. She was 23. Not a day goes by that I wish I could turn back the clock, that I could her smile, that I could hold her again.
I understand your pain and hope it eases somewhat. I don't think it ever goes away completely, but hopefully it will lessen and be less intense as time goes on.
You have not registered any of your relatives on the site. If they have memorials then visit their memorial and set your relation to link them in your garden. If they do not have a memorial setup you could always create one for them.