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Cora Smyth

  • Joined:January '09
  • Location:Belfast
  • Age:33
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Hi my name is Cora, In Aug 2007 i found out that i was pregnant with my third child, me and my husband were delighted and couldn't wait to tell our oldest boy as he kept asking for another brother or sister. My pregnancy went well apart from a few wee things, but nothing to worry about. Then on the 8th of March i went into early labour about 3 1/2 weeks. I had to have an emergency c section as my baby was lying breach. When Darrach was born he was very grey looking and the doctors took him away straight away as he needed oxygen. My husband left me when he knew that i was ok to go and find our baby. When he found the doctors they told him that Darrach had Downs and that most babies born with Downs have heart problems. My husband then had to come and tell me what the doctor had told him, when he told me i just said that it just made him even more special, we were blessed. Then he told me about his little heart but i thought he will be ok, its probably a murmmer and it will sort its self out, how wrong was I . Darrach had a severe heart problem called Tetrilogy of fallots and he needed surgury as soon as possible. He only weighed 5lb 1oz so they needed him to gain weight. After 13 days Darrach had his first shunt fitted and after another two weeks in hospital Darrach was allowed home. That was such a happy day. Darrach was home for seven weeks and we noticed that he wasn't taking his feeds very well and was getting sick, so we took him back to hospital. They admitted him and he went to icu he had pneumonia. Darrach spent one month in icu and the doctors told us not to leave him as they didn't know if he would make it, It was a very scary time but Darrach fought hard. He was then moved to a ward were he stayed for a further six weeks, then his doctor wanted to do a heart cath on him, usually the babies go back to the ward after a heart cath, but not Darrach he was really ill and the doctors couldn't keep his blood pressure up. Darrach had to have emergancy surgery to have another shunt fitted to allow the blood to flow to his lungs, the doctors didn't know if he would make it, but Darrach fought hard again and came through the surgery. After a week in icu Darrach was back on the ward and doing well. Then in September we got him home after a long 4 1/2 mths. But that was short lived and after a few days Darrach was back. His doctor decided that Darrach needed his full repair soon and on the 27th of Oct Darrch had his surgery, it went well and the doctor and surgeon were very happy. So the next day Darrach was moved back over to icu in the children hospital. He was only back 1/2 hour when he had a cardiac arrest that lasted 40 mins, I thought that we had lost him. But Darrach fought again. After that i had convinced myself that my little boy was going nowhere and that he was here to stay. Unfortunatly his kidney's stopped working and he had to have dyalis, i have never prayed so hard for pee in all my life. Darrach had a week of stability but the doctors had warned us that Darrach was on a knifes edge but if he continued to have stable days and nights he had a change. Then on the Mon Daraach got pneumonia again. We thought that he could fight it like he had done before. In the early hours of Tue morning the nurse came and knocked the door of our bedroom in icu to say Darrach wasn't doing very well and that they couldn't keep his blood pressure up. They had increased his adrenaline but it wasn't working so they started to give him shots of adrenaline but still it made no difference. Darrach had everything there was to give but nothing was helping, his little body had become immuned to the adrenaline and all the other drugs given to him. The doctors told us there was nothing left to give him and that we probably had an hour or two with Darrach, but i still couldn't beleive it he was such a wee fighter i just kept thinking that things would change any minute, but that didn't happen Darrach fell asleep in my arms. That was the worst day of my life. Darrach was so loved and so wanted. I wanted him more than anything else in the world. He fought so hard he deserved a change, why is life so cruel and unfair. All the nurses and doctors loved him they all knew him so well. Darrach spent six mths of his little life in hospital but i know that he got so much love there, he had the nurses wrapped round his little finger. He was such a special wee man and i know one day that i will hold him in my arms again and i will never let him go. That will be the happiest day of my life.



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I can Not begin To Thank You for everything that you did for Alishia on her Birthday.

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Alishia's Daddy , 2 Sisters, Angel Princess Alishia & myself were all completely overwhelmed by all the Love & Kindess you sprinkled on Alishia's Memorial on what should have been her 15th Birthday.

You made a truly upsetting day much more bearable through knowing that you sincerely care.

A Million Thank You's are sent to you in this Message and Always for all the Love, Kindness & Support in the Past year I have been on GTS.

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If I could paint a picture
that would erase the shadows in a heart,
I would paint it for you.

If I could sketch away sorrows
your sorrows would cease to be,
and only love would form the lines
on your brow.

If I could create a portrait
designed to capture the essence of friendship,
your face would be upon the canvas.

A mosaic of modesty,
charcoal of class,
all presented in a landscape of gentleness.

An etched depiction of humanity
in its best form,
a tribute to mankind's goodness.
If only I could paint a picture...

(Bobbie Kilzer Gogain)

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Im sorry i might not be able to light candles every day for a while my dad battled bowl cancer last year and recovered they have found another tumour in his bowel,hes having tests tomorrow to see if his heart can take surgry all going well he will have his op on tuesday"nadia,s angel day" say a prayer that all will go ok hes a lovely man and a great dad but hes so frail after all hes being through all my love Gabrielle xxx

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Her hair was up in a pony tail,
Her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school,
And she couldn't wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her,
That she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
If she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid;
She knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
Of why he wasn't there today.

But still her mother worried,
For her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
She tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school
Eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees
A dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back,
For everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
Anxious in their seats

One by one the teacher called
A student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
As seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name,
Every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
A man who wasn't there.

'Where's her daddy at?'
She heard a boy call out.
'She probably doesn't have one,'
Another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back,
She heard a daddy say,
'Looks like another deadbeat dad,
Too busy to waste his day.'

The words did not offend her,
As she smiled up at her Mom.
And looked back at her teacher,
Who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back,
Slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child,
Came words incredibly unique.

'My Daddy couldn't be here,
Because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
Since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy,
And how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories
He taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
And taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes,
And ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him.
I'm not standing here alone.

'Cause my daddy's al ways with me,
Even though we are apart
I know because he told me,
He'll forever be in my heart'
With that, her little hand reached up,
And lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
Beneath her favorite dress. And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads,
Her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
Who was wise beyond her years.

For she stood up for the love
Of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her,
Doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down,
Staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
But its message clear and loud.

'I love my daddy very much,
he's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here,
But heaven's just too far.

You see he is a Brittish soldier
And died just this past year
When a roadside bomb hit his convoy
And taught Britians to fear.
But sometimes when I close my eyes,
it's like he never went away.'
And then she closed her eyes,
And saw him there that day.

And to her mothers amazement,
She witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children,
All starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them,
Who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second,
They saw him at her side.

'I know you're with me Daddy,'
To the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
Of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,
For each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her,
Was a fragrant long-stemmed rose.


And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
By the love of her shining star.
And given the gift of believing,
That heaven is never too far.

Send this to the people you'll never forget and
Remember to send it also to the person that sent It to you. It's a short message to let them know that you'll never forget them.

If you don't send it to anyone, it means you're
in a hurry and that you've forgotten your friends.

Take the time...to live and love.
Until eternity. God bless!

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I want to thank you friend for all the support you've given me and my angel...your lovely candles, tributes and pictures mean so much to me and my family...Thank you for always being here for me and helping me keep my angel memory alive.
All my love to you and your angel always xxxxxxxxxxxx Thank you from the bottom of my Heart xxxxxxxx

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THANK YOU FOR GIVING,
THANK YOU FOR SHARING,
THANK YOU FOR CARING,
AND THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND.

Lots Of Love Always Sharon & Angel Stacey xxx

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