hi charlie-jade sorry for the loss of your best friend .i know what you are going though. i lost my best friend 20years ago she was the young age of 14 .its still hurts now .But the way i get by is remembering the good times we had .just remeber has time passes and every step you take in life samantha will be by your side .take care of yourself and i am sure samantha would say the same .god bless you xxx
I just read your memorial and I am so srry you are going through this, I lost my fiancee on the 4th October, my pain is still so raw I know what you are going through, life hurts so much with out him, the same as you life will hurt with out samantha.
unfortunatly life goes on, i know it isn't what you want to hear because it isn't what I want to hear either and you will get days when you get so low that you will think there is no why out, just think of the people that love you, there will be lots of them and if you left you would leave them with this pain too.
as time goes on you will have the pain but it will become easier to deal with. I am sure she is looking out for you, look out for signs, my Kev is with me most of the time, lots of things happen to show me he is around, they haven't left us it's just we can't see them any more.
if you need anyone to talk to I am here feel free to message me, you can just moan and say how rubbish it all is as I can guess the things you want to say are pretty much the same as what I want to say!!
got you in my thoughts
She was a good friend to you but dont forget you were a good friend to her she was lucky to have you in her life too just because she has gone does not mean that she is not always with you watching over you and keeping you safe xx
Dear Charlie-Jade, I know how much it hurts to lose a loved one, when it's to suicide- the confusion of it just makes it that much worse. I read what u wrote about "your life being crap without her" but u have to remember that time will heal the pain. I know, especially at your age, it's so hard to imagine yourself later in life but I promise u it will get easier to cope. When I lost my daughter Jaida (she died at birth) 5yrs ago today, I thought the pain would kill me. But as time goes by, u learn to live again. 3wks ago, my first-husband, my son's father (my very good friend who I grew up with & then married!) he committed suicide. I'm heart-broken & mad & sad & confused, as u probably are too, but if you really feel that u have nothing else to live for, please Charlie-Jade, find someone who can help u deal with your loss. I'm here if u want to talk about it. Take care & keep your chin up Sweetie. I promise it'll become bearable someday. U'll never forget your friend but you'll learn to live without her. I'm so sorry you have to deal with death at such a young age. You're going to turn into one very strong woman someday...maybe you'll be able to reach out to kids who go thru the same thing u did. Don't give up...one day at a time, ok? God Bless u. Your friend, Jessie Butter