Candina Nicola Sister

My name is Candina and I am doing a memorial for my sister Nicola my one and only sister who may not be here in person but is in spirit and is close to me at heart. I miss her and love her loads and feel I am more closer to her by doing this site, she is always in my thoughts and I am so lucky to have her as my sister no one will ever take her place she is so special to me my mumm and her brothers.

Sadly she was taken by the angels before her first birthday she died from a nasty disease Meningitus, my mumm has phtos of her, she was a lovely beautiful girl she was the spitting image of my mumm with her curly dark hair and her big brown eyes, she is my mumm's first baby girl they shared so much in the short time that my mumm had with her.

Mumm says she used to love cheesy watsits and she used to swing side to side when eastenders played all this fond memories my mumm has they are relived each time she talks about my sister and you can just imagine how she would of been and her doing things that my mumm said she did.

I never came to meet her but it wasnt long before i come along after, i would love to have known her and grew up by her side she is my big sister and I often wonder if we would of been alike in ways such as liked the same guys, clothes, make up if she would of gone university been driving before me i sit and laugh to myself because i could imagine us lmto (laughing my tummy off).

Darling siter your going to be an auntie next year im due Arpil 18th and I just found out last thursday that im having a little boy your having a nephew wow! i know i cant believe it myself i wanted a little boy and im blessed to get what i want, havent thought of any names yet but there is a few that i like I wonder if you would of had any kids by now wow! mummy's going to be a nana lol and in the year of when the baby is going to be a few months old im going to get him baptised like i was i know your be there in spirit after all you cant miss it its a big day.

Hope there taking care after you up above and you get to ride horses all day i love horses hope to own my own one day and my own stables, bet you can eat as much cholcolate as you want i love chocolate mumm knows lol!!

I love you Nicola, mumm misses you alot and me too, me and mumm have a fantastic relationship not ones that mothers and daughters often have, she is my best friend and means so much to me she is really special, we do things together like go for walks well we did start in the summer lol and then the winter come so we aint for a while but we go for lunch over the park sometimes and have chicken and chips and a roll with chilly sauce yummy, she is a special lady i call her my angel she is one in a million and i wouldnt change her for the world she has been through alot as i imagine you have watched over and see for yourself hunni she has come along way and is still fighting strong, i look after her the best i can.


Your always thought of babe every night before i go to bed i say good night to you and blow a kiss to you at the picture just above mumm's bed of you loved your rocking horse you had as a kid, wow your going to be 22 next year im going to be 21 big one and im going ot be 8 months pregnant lol where do the years go? they say that the placenta is low on the baby please look after and over me i dont want to loose my baby ive already lost one early this year march was so sad and ive already come to love this baby my boy and i want everything to turn out to be ok i deserve to be a mum and i just dont know if i could handle having another miscarriage so please make sure im ok.

I'll leave you to go play with horses and angels my darling i love you so very much and miss you dearly dont worry me and the boys look after mumm she is ok and i would never let anything bad happen to her i carry the love for both of us me and you, take care babe alwyas in my thoughts and prayers xxxx

Thank you everyone who leaves comments and lights candles for my siter its kind of you all and is appreciated your comments are beautufil too xxx