Brian Johnson

hello everyone heres a little bit about me and my wife we have been together for 2 years now we both got together and thought that we never wanted to have any children but as time went on we decided that we would anyway last year my wife conceived with our first ever child we were so happy and obviously a felt like the happiest man alive my first ever child wow thats all i kept saying in my head and the suddenly one afternoon susan started bleeding really heavy and i thought oh know please no so i phoned an ambulance and susan got rushed into a&e and we were reffered to early pregnancy assessment centre and at 6 weeks and 4 days the midwife confirmed that this was a complete miscarrage our heart sank our whole meaning off life had suddenly dissapeard and as time got on we both got very down and depressed we never talked about it amongst ourselves which caused a real strain on our relationship it nearly broke us up but we found the strength against the love that we feel for each other and said we can get through this and we will try again so the weeks turned into months and we thought is it ever going to happen again and eventually anyway it happened susan concieved again we thought great hopefully this time everything will be ok but then the bleeding started quite heavy again so we were reffered to the epac again where the midwife confirmed this time at 7 weeks and one day we were having twins our hearts were filled with excitment and joy and thought this is not real we kept saying twins repeatedly lol we were so excited the weeks turned into months and sues belly getting bigger everthing is going to be ok as we went for our twenty week scan the midwife said a boy and a girl one of each we said we thought we were blessed a complete family but tragically on monday the 28th of july at 7.30 pm sues waters broke no not again i kept saying in my head its to early so anyway the ambulance came and sue got took to the delivery suite nothing happened so i went home at 6.45 in the mornin i recived a phone call can you come straight to the hospital so as i got there i was not expecting the news i recieved susan give birth to your little daughter sophie this morning and she never made it my heart sank i broke down in tears and all i could think about was getting to sue and making sure she was ok sophies placenta never came and the hospital said it will come it will come and it never did they said the little boy lewis will come and then he never did so they gave us the option of trying to hang on with lewis a few more weeks to see if he can survive in there but sadly with sophies placenta not coming out sue was prone to all sorts of infections and was really really bad the doctor came into the room and gave us the news we had been dreading its either you or the little boy we have to get him out or your going to die by this time we both could take no more heart ache they left us alone for half an hour while we talked and both decided that that it was hard but the right thing to do i could not loose sue as well as the twins how would i cope they started his labour and he hung on there for over 24 hours we thought he is not ready and we felt like murderers and then at 8.55 am on the 1st august out come my little son lewis perect he is i said as i hugged and kissed him and guess what still no placenta so sue got rushed to theatre were they had to remove the twins placenta and clear up all infection we then got it all clear and sue was aloud to come home we now have our two precious little angels buried so we have somewere to go to remember them thank you all for reading take care brian and sue xx