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Pamela Murray

Age	46
Location	Lanark, Scotland
Last Seen	Yesterday evening
Joined	October 22, 2008
Gifts Given	17
Candles Lit	274
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About Pamela

Hi, I'm Pamela, Wee Danny's Mum.
I'm married to Danny (Snr) 25yrs, have 2 fab kids, Louise 19, Paul 17 and 2 Jack
Russell dogs, Queenie and Harry.
I trained as nurse many, many years ago and work 3 days a week in the operating
theatre, at our local general hospital.
My hubby has his own commercial vehicle repair firm (Wee Danny worked for his
Dad). On my days off I help out in the office.
Not really much to say about myself, I'll give it a bash.... I've got a few
hobbies, well did have, Prior to losing Wee Danny, trying hard to get them
slowly back, here goes...... I love ice skating, travelling, listening to music
(my taste is of a wide variety, including, Simple Minds, Wee Kylie Minogue &
Take That!) walking and speaking 'Spanish'!~~'Hola'!
I'm a wee bit mental, love doing silly things and trying new advenure things
out, e.g I have a plan to climb Kilimanjaro with my good friend 'Rosie' in
2010???......!!!!
I'm well known for just disappearing away and going for a drive for hours on
end. I have a wee sanctuary place, I call it 'My Bubble' its really a static
caravan on the shores of Loch Long and thats where I go to just get away, be me,
walking and chilling in the peace & quiet!

My Heart Broke and a big chunk of my life ended when
Our son Danny Jnr or 'Wee Danny' as he was known by, was hit by a car and killed
instantly in the early hours of Sunday 13th April 2003, while walking with 9
other friends to a friends house after a night out. We weren't expecting him
home that night, he had his overnight bag as they were all going Ten Pin Bowling
the next day. My everlasting memory of Wee Danny was on the Saturday evening
squashed into the back of our neighbours Fathers tiny car (he had scrounged a
lift, so I wouldn't need to get out my nightie to give him a lift). He looked so
handsome, smart and grown up. He never came home. I wanted us to be a family of
five just for one more night. So I brought Danny home the night before his
funeral a few days later. His coffin was closed (only because Louise & Paul were
still very young and a bit, well, need I say?) A big part of me and my heart
died with Danny and as each single day has passed since losing him, its a
constant sruggle for survival to get back into whatever I have to get back into,
My life? my hubby? my other 2 kids?
I'm still here and doing the best I can by them, its hard and every day is a
constant, painful, struggle to survive!! I Miss him so so much. I miss him
thundering up the hallway when he couldn't find what he was looking for, saying:
"see this hoose!!!". So Quiet now. The pain is unbearable at times. We live in a
small town, As Wee Danny's funeral was so big, (there were 15 trucks in the
proccession) the traffic had to be re-routed! People ask "how did you feel that
day? how did you get through it"? Honestly? Looking back as I do always, I felt
very humbled, that all these people had came from far and wide. I felt
embarrassed leaving Chapel, as it was standing room only (Trust us Murray's,
anything for a scene?) He would have been so chuffed with all the trucks. I
found myself asking on the day how everyone else was??? It was the next day,
when I woke up and thought, 'Oh My God'!! What do I do now? How did I feel
then? I wanted to die, again! But.....I'm here, I have my memories and I know he
is happy and creating havoc in a very special place. I can't wait to see him
again and give him one of my 'Special Hugs' The only thing I've learned through
this, is just how quick 'those precious to us can be taken' Life is so short and
you have only one shot at it!
I know what a Broken Heart feels like now.

Just the average family
We didn't ask for more,
Then life was changed completely
With that knock upon our door

This awful thing had happened
And none of us knew why,
You were never coming back again
And we didn't say goodbye

Our world just fell to pieces
We cried in disbelief,
We had to stick together
To overcome our grief

We'll never understand it
It all seems so unfair,
We wish we'd hear that knock again
And see you standing there.

~IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY,
AND MEMORIES FORM A LANE.
ID WALK RIGHT UP TO HEAVEN,
AND BRING YOU HOME AGAIN.~ X X X X X X

Yesterday is a 'Memory'
Tomorrow is a 'Mystery'
Today is 'The Present'
That's why we call it 'A Gift'

For all of you who know me and are close to me, Thank you from the bottom of my
heart. You know who you are~~~~xxx~~~~

A Special Thank You to my GTS friends for tributes, candles, gifts and just
taking the time to read Wee Danny's page. It means a lot and does help. Love to
you all. Pamela xxx

~THANK EVERYONE FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT, TRIBUTES, CANDLES & GIFTS. I AM LOST FOR
WORDS AND APPRECIATE THEM ALL~THANK YOU~
HAPPY NEW YEAR~~~PAMELA XXX

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