My darling husband crossed over on the 12th feb 2011 of a sudden heart attack, there was no signs no warning, we had been out walking our dogs when we got home he said he didn,t feel right he sat in the chair and he was gone I did CPR for 20 mins waiting for the ambulance to arrive but he didn,t respond even though the coroner has said there was nothing I could have done it was instant I got over and over that night every day he was only 54 and had just retired and we had so many plans we did every thing together I just can,t see a way forward I have kept myself busy doing thing for him I know he would like but I find that as each day passes it,s getting harder and harder to stay positive I just feel I want to end all this hurt to be back with him :(
RE: How do I go forward
Beverley I am so very sorry for your loss. I know each day is hard and who ever said time heals, well I don't think. I do think time perhaps dull the pain. I am sure though your husband would want you to go on and each day you manage to get thru he is proud of you. If keeping busy helps then try to keep busy. For me its been 19 months and I still have to keep busy. Reach out to your real life friends or talk to others here. Talking doesn't fix things but just having someone to share feelings with who truly understand does help, My thoughts and prays are with you.
RE: How do I go forward
Beverley you have put into word how I feel..My wonderful Wife Veronica went to join the Angels on 14/01/11 4 days before her 49th birthday.
I've tried to move on to ease the pain ..but inside I know I'm not ready & like you I want to end this pain..
i don't know the answer....but it does help me to know someone else feels like I do..
RE: How do I go forward
Hi Don I 'm so sorry for your loss if your anything like me your deverstated i know exactly how you feel. I think because they are so young it makes it harder because I feel me still had so much time to be together and grow old together I find myself looking at couples old and young and feel envy. I hope you feel better soon every one tells me time is a healer but I think as time passes I miss him more I find myself smelling his clothes and searching for things that would have him talking on cause it's the voice you forget first sorry to drivvle on :)
RE: How do I go forward
you are so right hun,not drivel at all & I really appreciate your support :-)
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