Still struggling 7 years on.....

Its my sons birthday today, and he is growing up so quickly, but i always feel a sting on his birthday, its bitter sweet as i was so terrified on this day 6 years ago, that he might suffer the same fate as his brother who came before him.

And ow the countdown to the day i got to hold my baby, one of a handful of times, before he was ripped from me.

such a bitter sweet time for me.

I am forever scarred by the loss of my baby, but i am so happy that i got him for that little time.

I love all my boys, all three of them are my world.

Gem

July 11, 2012