My babygirl went to heaven one day shy of her 1 month birthday. She was born 27th of dec, 2011 with an underdeveloped left ventricle. It has and continues to be extremely hard. Especially since we left the hospital with no fears. We did not know about Alexa's condition until the day she was born.10 hours after her birth, a nurse noticed that she looked bluish. Her oxygen levels were very low and she was transported to LPCH in Stanford california.Her surgery went well as did her recuperation. We had no setbacks, except for the fact that she was not feeding on her own and she was on 8 different medications. We were released and went home on Monday. Nothing out of the ordinary occured during those days. The thursday that she passed away on, things were like routine. At 5pm my husband was holding her and she stretched and then turned bluish purple. We called 911. they were there within 5mins, but she was already lifeless and white. At the moment they saythat she suffered an arrhythmia. her heartrate was in the 50's. they worked on her for over an hour and no reaction. Her dr. said that there was really nothing that could of been done. If she would of been brought back her life would of been painful and would not of been a good one. He said a "merciful death". Her 1 month anniversary is on the 26th. i try to take it one day at a time, but it is extremely difficult. I have a very supportive husband who also misses her, but we have two other girls who need us. Sometimes though I feel rushed to move on and it's driving me insane. I am so tired and worn out. My entire world is NUMB.
RE: Missing my one month old Baby Alexa
Thinking of you at this very sad time x x
Sleep tight Angel x x
RE: Missing my one month old Baby Alexa
My baby should almost be 2 months old, but instead she will be eternally a month old. We visited her today on her one month anniversary of receiving her wings. Well we actually visit her every day. Only this time her aunt, her cousins, and her grandma came along. It's so hard. I need to learn how to cope, but i just keep getting angrier. I am so tired. If not for my husband and my two other girls I would be completely lost. Love you my little Alexa Wuexa
RE: Missing my one month old Baby Alexa
It will be 2 years in june and it still hurts every day since i lost my son . I had 19 Fantastic years , lots of photos and vidio footage , in a way i suppose im lucky . Even though u only had 1 month with your Daughter it still hurts just as much . It Will Never go away the way you feel but mite just get easier to cope with . I still cry most days , i miss him so much . God Bless your little Angel x x
RE: Missing my one month old Baby Alexa
Our baby passed away at four weeks old in her sleep its so hard but i understand how u feel lillymai was our no 6 so u have to keep going for the other children ... theres not a moment in the last two weeks where ive wanted to join her in heaven but i know we have to be strong for lillymai n her 2 sisters n 3 brothers ..... yr baby will be sadly missed but be string rip all the angels in heaven
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