I'm not sure that I have the strength or will to keep going through life without my special boy but I know that I have to keep going for my other children. Each day passes and each day I cry and ask for the strength to carry on. I feel like a robot doing what I have to do because there is no choice but to carry on and it is like torture. I'm terrified for Christmas coming because I don't know how to cope. I cannot imagine managing to live another50-60 years with this pain. It feels like I am stuck in a nightmare and can't get out. I know that people say you learn to cope but I can't imagine how and don't want to cope I just want my wee boy back.
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RE: Life seems so long to face without him.
i know how you feel and im so sorry for your loss i spmtimes wish and pray to be taken to be with him i hope it will get easier for all of us i just still dont understand why god does it maybe all our angels were just to good for this earth lots of love hugs and gentle days ahead xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
RE: Life seems so long to face without him.
Angela.
So sorry for your loss. I lost my daughter Sammy over four weeks ago and everyday is a nightmare without her. People say it gets easier and remember all the good times but all I can see at the moment is her lying in a hospital bed dying. Take care xxxx
RE: Life seems so long to face without him.
I know exactly how you feel Angela. My nephew Jake died a year ago today, and the pain is getting harder to bear (not easier) despite what everyone tells you.
I don't have kids of my own so Jake was like a son to me.
I'm 36 now and the thought of living another 40-50 years without seeing him is more than I can bear.
His baby brother is now 15 mths old and he's the only reason that we all carry on. If we didn't have Charlie I don't know what would happen.
Thinking of you xxx
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