my gorgeous angel was born asleep and i still feel as if im slowly drowning in my own heartache even though 3yrs has passed.
i know everyone is lookin at me thinkin "she needs 2 give herself a shake" but i cant keep going on like this.
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RE: i am slowly drowning in this heartache
i feel for you Amanda & know exactly the feelings that youre describing my special little girl went to heaven December 31st 07 at the tender age of 1 year and 6 days, and every single minute of every single day i think of her and wish she was here and wonder what she'd be doing if she was here. each day is a constant struggle and i still have days where i want to join Rhiain in heaven. i constantly worry about how she is, if she's cold or if she needs me and i am not there for her. i have days where i dont want to get out of bed, days i just want to turn the clock back, infact everyday i want to do that just to have one last cuddle, one kiss and a proper goodbye! life is so cruel huni and i know for you, you must constantly wish you'd seen your little angel's eyes blink, their 1st cry and 1st smile. its only natural that you would and you should have had that. although i dont always feel grateful i do count my blessings for the 1 year and 6 days i had with Rhiain. as mummy's we know the pain wont go away for us but we have to stay strong! i really doubt that people are thinking that when they look at you, i know my friends struggle with knowing what to say when i have the bad days. i'm lucky to have a wonderful family around me and i hope you do have also.
try to stay strong, hold your chin up and remember that although your angel is in heaven~your angel is forever connected to you, and that is throu a heart connection~one that can never be severed!
i hope this message helps you feel less alone, if youd like to chat then plz message me, i will do my best. Love Kate xxxxx
RE: i am slowly drowning in this heartache
Hi Amanda, I'm so sorry for your loss.
Anyone who's ever lost a child will understand what you're going through. I lost my son 21 weeks into my pregnancy and not a day goes by when I don't think of him. It is a constant pain in my chest and some days I wonder if it'll ever get easier.
Have you considered counselling? It's not something I've tried myself but I've heard people say how helpful it is. Sometimes it's nice just to have someone to listen without judging you.
I hope you have a supportive family to help you through this.
Take care and stay strong xxx
RE: i am slowly drowning in this heartache
My daughter Cindy was 43 when she passed suddenly it will be a year on the 24th of this month I cannot imagin ever getting over her death I still cry myself to sleep every now and then when thoughts overtake me Cindy's daughter as just given birth to a baby(son )who would have been Cindy's first grandchild, It doe'nt matter who old they are they are still our babies And I don't think anybody can help us get over this I am lucky to have other children but one of us is gone and we are all suffering the pain plus Cindys Husband and children are finding it impossible to cope with her absense
you are not alone!!!
In October it will be a year since Mac passed. WOW ... a year. However, I still have not found it easy to breath again. I too am drowning in this heartache. Everyone around me tends to think.. ""OH GET OVER IT ALREADY"" But, Im not, never will be. I lost my son. Im not being selfish in my grief, I am being a mother. The only support I seem to find is from other Mommys who have lost their children. I went to a therapist until about a month ago. However, my therapist was not a mom.. she couldn't relate and made me feel like it was time to suck it up already. However, I find therapy in talking to other Moms who have lost children. Hope things get better for you although I know the road you are traveling.. Im hear if you wanna talk or vent
Hugs
Sarah
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