I'm not coping well today, after a while of holding my emotions together.
I lost my Baby Son, Daniel last July. He was just 5 and half weeks old, when he passed away very suddenly.
I went to visit his Special Garden today and I was so upset that his lantern candle had blown out :-(
Some may not see that as a big deal, but we have always found comfort in knowing that his Little Place has light there, when we aren't there.
It made me feel so guilty that his little garden had been in darkness. . . .
The tears keep creeping back today.
I don't know who else has noticed but its a different kind of crying after you have lost someone. Complete grief when the tears are flowing. . . .
I find little enjoyment out of life nowadays. It just seems pointless getting up but I don't want to allow the grief to completely take over me.
I know Daniel wouldn't want that. But we, as a family, miss him so much.
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Thank you for reading.
RE: Having such a teary day :-(
Hi , I know how you feel when Daniels candle goes out , I hate it the odd time that Craigs has gone out , i dont like Craig in the dark either sending thoughts and love to you and Daniel xxxx
RE: Having such a teary day :-(
Our life's will never be the same but we must keep going....we have no choice.
Little things aren't little things to us because we've been robbed of doing what we should be doing. Our children have been taken from us and without the little things our lives would become impossible. I get upset if the flowers in Danielle's garden die before I change them it makes me feel like a bad mum, but I know she wouldn't want me to cry.
We've had a loss beyond any other and life will always be a struggle for us and crying is good for our broken hearts.....thinking of you and sending much love xx
RE: Having such a teary day :-(
hello honey,i am so sad and sorry for your loss i really do feel for you.. life is so cruel i lost my son nearly seven years ago and the pain is still within me and will always be there........as for your little mans garden i understand how you are feeling,how about getting him a solar lantern i have got one at my daz's garden ideal as soon as darkness falls the light turns on.....tears are good a good cry will help you don't have to feel guilty your little man is watching over you he knows you love and miss him... take everyday as it comes if you need to talk i am here for you as alot of gts mums are too...take care lots of love to you and your family xxxx
RE: Having such a teary day :-(
I am so sorry for your loss. I understand completely about the latern. My thoughts and prays are with you.
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