It's been almost 2 months since losing my Riley and things seem to get even harder every day. I always find myself in tears, I can't smile at all, I don't like to speak with anyone I would stay at home all day if that was possible. It scares me.... I can't imagine life becoming any easier in the future.....
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So sorry Jill for your loss.
I remember thinking the same thing ''how the hell do I live' but just over 2 years and I'm still living. Yes things are so horrible some days but I have now started to see a little light....time makes things easier to cope with.
Your in the thick of it, and I know just how awful it is. I still don't speak with anyone except at work, infact I speak to myself ( I must sound a right looney) but one thing I know is my way is the only way....one day at a time.
Don't be scared Jill their's lots of us mums to talk to on here, we share the same heartache and are always happy to chat.
Much love to you and your little smiler : ) ♥ ♥
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I wrote a nice long message...gone! Any ways Jill my thoughts are with you.
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Hi Jill, like Julie it's been just over two years since I lost my son. A day doesn't go by that I don't miss him, and I certainly do not accept what happened, I still wonder what could I have changed that fateful night but there is no answers. When James first pass I never thought I would be be looking back and saying its been two years, I honestly thought I would die of a broken heart but some how you do go on. Everything is the same yet everything is so very different. You do certainly find out who your friends are, they mean well but they really do not understand as we are now living every parents worst night mare. I am sorry I don't mean to make you feel worst, guess what I want to say is some how you will put one foot in front of the other and the time will pass. The pain will never go away but there are now times I can think of a memory and say "I am glad we had that" instead of "what should of been", thought I still have lots of that. The people here are truly wonderful and when I feel alone in my world I reach out to the wonderful people here because I know they understand. Hugs.
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Hi Jill. I just lost my Alexa Wuexa on Jan. 26, 2012. she was one day shy of being a month old. Life is hell, buy we must continue on. I am not saying that i have accepted her passing. I do not think anyone would every accept that. It's just that the more I cry the more harm I cause. I still cry but on my own. No matter how much I wish for her to be back, i knowit will never happen. My anger is in the why. Also in seeing other survivors of HLHS. Our lives will always be drained. we just have to figure out how to replenish with the memories they gave us. At the moment it is hard to recall them, but one day (i hope) it will be easier.
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hi Jill i lost my son maurice on the 30th of dec 2008 Jill crying is ok you are going throught ever parents worst nightmare no parent should ever have to go throught this there is not one day i dont think of maurice and 4 years i still cry i take one step at a time one day at a time when maurice frist passed i remember people saying this to me and i could not even see a hour ahead i know you dont want to here this but you have to get out i know i did not want to but i began going to friends houses them coming to my house i had to you will find some of your friends dont know how to talk to you but good friends and family just let yu be your self if you need to cry all day to day you cry but remember one day at a time Riley is always with you so talk to him i begain to write to maurice so i have a book and i tell him all the news and when i am having a bad day i give out i write it all down i can see goign back over my book i have good days and bad still thinking of you at this time i am always here you can drop me a line sending you my love xxx
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I understand your pain Jill, and I'm so sorry for your loss.
Please feel free to chat with me if you need a shoulder to cry on. I know that I have cried more than I thought a person could cry.. I have cried enough tears to fill a river.
It's a pain that nobody can understand unless they have lost a child.
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I understand your pain Jill, and I'm so sorry for your loss.
Please feel free to chat with me if you need a shoulder to cry on. I know that I have cried more than I thought a person could cry.. I have cried enough tears to fill a river.
It's a pain that nobody can understand unless they have lost a child.
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Hi Jill , soo sorry for your loss , they say time is a healer , which i hoped was true , i lost my son 4 years ago and i still feel the exact pain now as i did when he was taken , i have just learned to live with that hes not here no more and he is somewhere happy , not that anywhere else other than with me he could be happier but it is easier to believe that , i just have to get on and look after my other 2 boys , as laura said i have cryed more than i thought any one could cry , talking about it does help , i wish i had spoken to someone about it years ago i have only now started to talk and join groups to try and help me through , hope you can do the same , lots of love carla xx
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Hello its been 86 weeks since my precious son closed his eyes,everyday is difficult i miss him so so much,he was taken so sudden with a epilectic seizure.stephen was just 23,everyday i awake feeling so sad&empty.Ive only joined the gone to soon today x
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