I lost my dad to suicide aug 2008 i was just wondering when or if it gets easier i dont know how many times ive just thought why i want him back he shouldnt have done it.
it makes me so angry sometimes then really sad that he thought that is all he could do i know he had alot on his plate but i still cant understand it and know i probably never will. I almost cry if i hear suicide i cry when my kiddies ask about him or his trucks its just wrong
RE: Does it get easier? feelings of suicide
I feel the same as you. I lost my partner to suicide in November 2009 and I constantly think about him and just wonder if he is near me and can hear me talking to him. Due to circumstances I was not invited to the funeral or to see him in the chaple of rest, infact the only thing i was included in was the inquest. I haven't been allowed to grieve and this hurts. He spent his last 3 and a half years with me being a big part of his life. I have nightmares about what he must have been feeling when he did what he did. I personally have had suicidal thoughts and actually attempted 3 days after his death. I am trying to work through things and get my life together. I'm trying to live a life that will make him proud of me and am actually going to start my mental health nurse training in september so that i can help people who are feeling so low. My prayers are with you and with anybody who has lost somebody in this cruel wayxxx God bless those we have loved and lostxxx
RE: Does it get easier? feelings of suicide
Hi anne marie what can i say,i lost my son aged 18 only 3 years ago and my life was devastated beyond belief,memories was all i had left and it hurt,everyday i cried and i also thought will it get better,even now a few years down the road a few more rocky steps on life's path i still think why why why and tears flow,the hurt is still with me and sometimes i wonder maybe i should be with him,maybe i should do the same but then i smile and think well maybe he wants me to stay here,to do the things he wants me too but it is hard. I try and think it is easier now, i smile, i laugh and i have a good time but underneath that smile,that laugh is sorrow and i always hide it,maybe it is wrong but i know one thing,because we never know why they have left us and it is a big why,we will never get over the death of a loved one to suicide,maybe one day we will who knows.x
RE: Does it get easier? feelings of suicide
hi gary read you message with great sadness, so sorry for you that you lost your child at such a young age and in such a tragic way, as you say you may never know his reasons why but one day when its your time you will see him again and be together foreve and nothing will part you, god bless x x
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